Dreams, by Fiona Macleod
||MORAG OF THE GLEN
It was a black hour for Archibald Campbell of
Gorromalt in Strathglas, and for his wife, and for Morag their second daughter, when the
word came that Muireall had the sorrow of sorrows. What is pain, and is death a thing to
fear? But there is a sorrow that no man can have and yet go free for evermore of a shadow
upon his brow: and there is a sorrow that no woman can have and keep the moonshine in her
eyes. And when a woman has this sorrow, it saves or mars her: though, for sure, none of us
may discern just what that saving may be, or from whom or what, or what, may be the bitter
or sweet ruin. We are shaped as clay in the potter's hand: ancient wisdom, that we seldom
learn till the hand is mercifully still, and the vessel finished for good or evil, is
It is a true saying that memory is like the seaweed when the tide is in---but the tide
ebbs. Each frond, each thick spray, each fillicaun or pulpy globe, lives lightly in the
wave: the green water is full of strange rumour, of sea-magic and sea-music: the hither
flow and thither surge give continuity and connection to what is fluid and dissolute. But
when the ebb is far gone, and the wrack and the weed lie sickly in the light, there is
only one confused, intertangled mass. For most of us, memory is this tide-left strand:
though for each there are pools, or shallows which even the ebb does not lick up in its
thirsty way depthward---narrow overshadowed channels to which we have the intangible
clues. But for me there will never be any ebb-tide of memory, of one black hour, and one
A wild lone place it was where we lived: among the wet hills, in a country capped by
slate-black mountains. To the stranger the whole scene must have appeared grimly desolate.
We, dwellers there, and those of our clan, and the hill folk about and beyond, knew that
there were three fertile straths hidden among the wilderness of rock and bracken:
Strathm˛r, Strathgorm, and Strathglas. It was in the last we lived. All Strathglas was
farmed by Archibald Campbell, and he had Strathgorm to where the Gorromalt Water cuts it
off from the head of Glen Annet. The house we lived in was a long, two-storied whitewashed
building with projecting flanks. There was no garden, but only a tangled potato-acre, and
a large unkempt space where the kail and the bracken flourished side by side, with the
kail perishing day by day under the spreading, strangling roots of the usurper. The rain
in Strathglas fell when the most other spots were fair. It was because of the lie of the
land, I have heard. The grey or black cloud would slip over Ben-Bhreac or MelbŔinn, and
would become blue-black while one were wondering if the wind would lift it on to
Maol-Dunn, whose gloomy ridge had two thin lines of pine trees which, from Strathglas,
stood out like bristling eyebrows. But, more likely than not, it would lean slowly
earthward, then lurch like a water-logged vessel, and spill, spill through a rising misty
vapour, a dreary downfall. Oh! the rain---the rain---the rain! how weary I grew of it,
there; and of the melancholy mÚh'ing of the sheep, that used to fill the hills
with a lamentation, terrible, at times, to endure.
And yet, I know, and that well, too, that I am thinking this vision of Teenabrae, as the
house was called and of its dismal vicinage in the light of tragic memory. For there were
seasons when the rains suspended, or came and went like fugitive moist shadows: days when
the sunlight and the wind made the mountains wonderful and wrought the wild, barren hills
to take on a softness and a dear, familiar beauty: hours, even, when, in the
hawthorn-time, the cuckoo called joyously across the pine-girt scaurs and corries on
MelbŔinn, or, in summer, the swallows filled the straths as with the thridding of a
Sure enough, I was too young to be there: though, indeed, Morag was no more than a year
older, being twenty; but when my mother died, and my father went upon the seas upon one of
his long whaling voyages, I was glad to leave my lonely home in the Carse o' Gowrie and go
to Teenabrae in Strathglas, and to be with my aunt, that was wife to Archibald mac
Alasdair Ruadh---Archibald Campbell, as he would be called in the lowland way---or
Gorromalt as he was named by courtesy, that being the name of his sheep-farm that ran into
the two straths where the Gorrornalt Water surged turbulently through a narrow wilderness
of wave-scooped, eddy-hollowed stones and ledges.
I suppose no place could be called lifeless which had always that sound of Gorromalt
Water, that ceaseless lamentation of the sheep crying among the hills, that hoarse
croaking of the corbies who swam black in the air betwixt us and Maol-Dunn, that mournful
plaining of the lapwings as they wheeled querulously forever and ever and ever. But, to a
young girl, the whole of this was an unspeakable weariness.
Beside the servant-folk---not one of whom was to me anything, save a girl called, Maisie,
who had had a child and believed it had become a "pee-wit" since its death, and
that all the lapwings were the offspring of the sorrow of joy---there were only Archibald
Campbell, his wife, who was my aunt, Muireall the elder daughter, and Morag. These were my
folk: but Morag I loved. In appearance she and I differed wholly. My cousin Muireall and I
were like each other; both tall, dark-haired dark-browed, with dusky dark eyes, though
mine with no flame in them; and my face too, though not uncomely, without that touch of
wildness which made Muireall's so strangely attractive, and at times so beautiful. Morag,
however, was scarce over medium height. Her thick, wavy hair always retained the captive
gold that the sunshine had spilled there; her soft, white, delicate, wild-rose face was
like none other that I have ever seen: her eyes, of that heart-lifting blue which spring
mornings have, held a living light that was fair to see, and gave pain too, perhaps,
because of their plaintive hillside wildness. Ah, she was a fawn, Morag! . . . soft and
sweet, swift and dainty and exquisite as a fawn in the green fern.
Gorromalt himself was a gaunt, stern man. He was two inches or more over six feet, but
looked less, because of a stoop. It always seemed to me as if his eyes pulled him forward:
brooding, sombre, obscure eyes, of a murky gloom. His hair was iron-grey and matted;
blacker, but matted and tangled, his thick beard; and his face was furrowed like Ben
Scorain of the Corries. I never saw him in any other garb than a grey shepherd tweed with
a plaid, though no Campbell in Argyll was prouder than he, and he allowed no plaid or tunag
anywhere on his land or in his house that was not of the tartan of MacCailin M˛r. He was
what, there, they called a black protestant; for the people in that part held to the
ancient faith. True enough, for sure, all the same: for his pity was black, and the milk
of kindness in him must have been like Gorromalt Water in spate. Poor Aunt Elspeth! my
heart often bled for her. I do not think Archibald Campbell was unkind to his wife, but he
was harsh, and his sex was like a blank wall to her, against which her shallow waters
surged or crawled alike vainly. There was to her something at once terrible and Biblical
in this wall of cruel strength, this steadfast independence of love or the soft ways or
the faltering speech of love. There are women who hate men with an unknowing hatred, who
lie by their busband night after night, year after year; who fear and serve him; who tend
him in life and minister to him in death; who die, before or after, with a slaying thirst,
a consuming hunger. Of these unhappy housemates, of desolate hearts and unfrequented lips,
my aunt Elspeth was one.
It was on a dull Sunday afternoon that the dark hour came of which I have spoken. The rain
fell among the hills. There was none on the north side of Strathglas, where Teenabrae
stood solitary. The remembrance is on me keen just now: how I sat there on the bench in
front of the house, side by side with Morag, in the hot August damp, with the gnats
pinging overhead, and not a sound else save the loud raucous surge of Gorromalt Water,
thirty yards away. In a chair near us sat my aunt Eispeth. Beyond her, on a milking-stool,
with his chin in his hands, and his elbows on his knees, was her husband.
There was a gloom upon all of us. The day before, as soon as Gorromalt had returned from
Castle Avale, high up in Strathm˛r, we had seen the black east wind in his eyes. But he
had said nothing. We guessed that his visit to the Englishman at Castle Avale, who had
bought the Three Straths from Sir Ewan Campbell of Drumdoon, had proved fruitless, or at
least unsatisfactory. It was at the porridge on the Sabbath morning that he told us.
"And . . . and . . . must we go, Archibald?" asked his wife, her lips white, and
the deep, withered creases on her neck ashy grey.
He did not answer, but the tumbler cracked in his grip, and the splintered glass fell into
his plate. The spilt milk trickled off the table on to the end of his plaid, and so to the
floor. Luath, the collie, slipped forward, with her tongue lolling greedily: but her eye
caught the stare of the silent man, and with a whine, and a sudden sweep of her tail, she
It must have been nigh an hour later, that he spoke.
"No, Elspeth," he said. "There will be no going away from here, for you and
me, till we go feet foremost."
Before the afternoon we had heard all: how he had gone to see this English lord who had
"usurped" Drundoon: how he had not gained an interview, and had seen no other
than Mr. Laing, the East Lothian factor. He had had to accept bitter, hard terms. Sir Ewan
Campbell was in Madras, with his regiment, a ruined man: he would never be home again,
and, if he were, would be a stranger in the Three Straths, where he and his had lived, and
where his kindred had been born and had died during six centuries back. There was no hope.
This Lord Greyshott wanted more rent, and he also wanted Strathgorm for a deer-run.
We were sitting, brooding on these things: in our ears the fierce words that Gorromalt had
said, with bitter curses, upon the selling of the ancient land and the betrayal of the
Morag was in one of her strange moods. I saw her, with her shining eyes, looking at the
birch that overhung the small foaming linn beyond us, just as though she saw the soul of
it, and the soul with strange speech to it.
"Where is Muireall?" she said to me suddenly, in a low voice.
"Muireall?" I repeated, "Muireall? I am not for knowing, Morag. Why do you
ask? Do you want her?"
She did not answer, but went on:
"Have you seen him again?"
"Him? . . . Whom?"
"Jasper Morgan, this English lord's son."
A long silence followed. Suddenly Aunt Elspeth started. Pointing to a figure coming from
the peat-moss at the hither end of Strathm˛r, she asked who it was, as she could not see
without her spectacles. Her husband rose, staring eagerly. He gave a grunt of
disappointment when he recognised Mr. Allan Stewart, the minister of Strathm˛r parish.
As the old man drew near we watched him steadfastly. I have the thought that each one of
us knew he was coming to tell us evil news; though none guessed why or what, unless Morag
When he had shaken hands, and blessed the house and those within it, Mr. Stewart sat down
on the bench beside Morag and me. I am thinking he wanted not to see the eyes of
Gorromalt, nor to see the white face of Aunt Elspeth.
I heard him whisper to my dear that he wanted her to go into the house for a little. But
she would not. The birdeen knew that sorrow was upon us all. He saw "no" in her
eyes, and forbore.
"And what is the thing that is on your lips to tell, Mr. Stewart?" said
Gorromalt at last, half-mockinly, half-sullenly.
"And how are you for knowing that I have anything to tell, Gorromalt?"
"Sure, man, if a kite can see the shadow of a mouse a mile away, it can see a black
cloud on a hill near by!"
"It's a black cloud I bring, Archibald Campbell: alas, even so. Ay, sure, it is a
black cloud it is. God melt the pain of it!
"There is no good in wading in heather. Gorromalt, and you, Mrs. Campbell, and you,
my poor Morag, and you too, my dear, must just be brave. It is God's will."
"Speak, man, and don't be winding the shroud all the time! Let us be hearing and
seeing the thing you have brought to tell us."
It was at this moment that Aunt Elspeth half rose, and abruptly reseated herself, raising
the while a deprecatory feeble hand.
"Is it about Muireall?" she asked quaveringly. "She went away, to the
church at Kilbrennan, at sunrise: and the water's in spate all down Strathgorm. Has she
been drowned? Is it death upon Muireall? Is it Muireall? Is it Muireall?"
"She is not drowned, Mrs. Campbell."
At that she sat back, the staring dread subsiding from her eyes. But at the minister's
words, Gorromalt slowly moved his face and body so that-he fronted the speaker. Looking at
Morag I saw her face white as the canna.
Her eyes swam in wet shadow.
"It is not death, Mrs. Campbell," the old man repeated, with a strange, uneasy,
furtive look, as he put his right hand to his stiff white necktie and flutteringly
"In the name o' God, man, speak out!"
"Ay, ay, Campbell: ay, ay, I am speaking. . . . I am for the telling . . . .but . . .
but, see you, Gorromalt, be pitiful . . . be . . . "
Gorromalt rose. I never realised before how tall he was. There was height to him, like
unto that of a son of Anak.
"Well, well, well, it is just for telling you I'll be. Sit down, Gorromalt, sit down,
Mr. Campbell, sit down, man, sit down! . . . Ali, sure now, that is better. Well, well,
God save us all from the sin that is in us: but . . . ah, mothering heart, it is saving
you, I would be if I could, but . . . but . . ."
"But what!" thundered Gorromalt, with a voice that brought Maisie and
Kirsteen out of the byre, where they were milking the kye.
"He has the mercy: He only! And it is this, poor people: it is this. Muireall has
come to sorrow."
"What sorrow is the sorrow that is on her?"
"The sorrow of woman."
A terrible oath leaped from Gorromalt's lips. His wife sat in a stony silence, her staring
eyes filming like those of a stricken bird. Morag put her left hand to her heart.
Suddenly Archibald Campbell turned to his daughter.
"Morag, what is the name of that man whom Muireall came to know, when she and you
went to that Sodom, that Gomorrha, which men call London?"
"His name was Jasper Morgan."
"Has she ever seen him since?"
"I think so."
"You think? What will you be thinking for, girl! Think! There
will be time enough to think while the lichen grows grey on a newfall'n rock! Out with it!
Out with it! Have they met? Has he been here? . . . is he the man? "
There was silence then. A plover wheeled by, plaining aimlessly. Maisie the milk-lass ran
"Ah, 'tis my wee Seorsa," she cried. Seorsa! Seorsa! Seorsa!"
Gorromalt took a stride forward, his face shadowy with anger, his eyes ablaze.
"Get back to the kye, you wanton wench!" he shouted savagely. "Get back, or
it is having my gun I'll be and shooting that pee-wit of yours, that lennavan-Seorsa!
Then, shaking still, he turned to Morag.
"Out with it, girl! What do you know?"
"I know nothing."
"It is a lie, and it is knowing it I am!"
"It is no lie. I know nothing. I fear much."
"And what do you know, old man?" And, with that, Archibald Campbell
turned like a baited bull upon Mr. Stewart.
"She was misled, Gorromalt, she was misled, poor lass! The trouble began last May,
when she went away to the south, to that evil place. And then he came after her. And it
was here he came . . . and . . . and . . ."
"And who will that man be?"
"Morag has said it: Jasper Morgan."
"And who will Jasper Morgan be?"
"Are you not for knowing that, Archibald Campbell, and you Gorromalt?"
"Why, what meaning are you at?" cried the man, bewildered.
"Who will Jasper Morgan be but the son of Stanley Morgan!"
"Stanley Morgan! . . . Stanley Morgan! I am no wiser. Do you wish to send me mad,
man! Speak out! . . . out with it!"
"Why, Gorromalt, what is Drumdoon's name?"
"Drumdoon . . . Why, Sir Ewan . . . Ah no, for sure 'tis now that English
bread-taker, that southern land-snatcher, who calls himself Lord Greyshott. And what then?
will it be for . . ."
"Aren't you for knowing his name? . . . No? . . . Campbell, man, it is Morgan .
. . Morgan."
All this time Aunt Elspeth had sat silent. She now gave a low cry. Her husband turned and
looked at her. "Go into the house," he said, harshly; "this will not be the
time for whimpering; no, by God! it is not the time for whimpering, woman."
She rose, and walked feebly over to Mr. Stewart.
"Tell me all," she said. Ah, the grief to see the pain in her old, old
eyes---and no tears there at all, at all.
"When this man Jasper Morgan, that is son to Lord Greyshott, came here, it was to
track a stricken doe. And now all is over. There is this note only. It is for Morag."
Gorromalt leaned forward to take it. But I had seen the wild look in Morag's eyes and I
snatched it from Mr. Stewart, and gave it to my dear, who slipped it beneath her kerchief.
Sullenly her father drew up, scowled, but said nothing.
"What else?" he asked, turning to the minister.
"She is dying."
"Ay, alas, alas-the mist is on the hill---the mist is on the hill---and she so young,
too, and so fair, ay, and so sweet and---"
"That will do, Allan Stewart! That will do! . . . It is dying she is, you are for
telling us! Well, well, now, and she the plaything o' Jasper Morgan, the son of the man
there at Drumdoon, the man who wants to drive me away from here . . .this new man .
. . this, this lord . . . he. . . to drive me away, who have the years and years to
go upon, ay, for more than six hundred weary, long years----"
"Muireall is dying, Archibald Campbell. Will you be coming to see her, who is your
"And for why is she dying?"
"She could not wait."
" Wait! Wait! She could wait to shame me and mine! No, no, no, Allan Stewart, you go
back to Lord Greyshott's son and his leannan, and say that neither Gorromalt nor
any o' Gorromalt's kith or kin will have aught to do with that wastrel-lass. Let her death
be on her! But it's a soon easy death it is! . . . she that slept here this very last
night, and away this morning across the moor like a louping doe, before sunburst and an
hour to that!"
"She is at the 'Argyll Arms' in Kilbrennan. She met the man there. An hour after he
had gone, they found her, lying on the deerskin on the hearth, and she with the
deathsickness on her, and grave-white, because of the poison there beside her. And now,
Archibald Campbell, it is not refusing you will be to come to your own daughter, and she
with death upon her, and at the edge o' the silence!"
But with that Gorromalt uttered wild, savage words, and thrust the old man before him, and
bade him begone, and cursed Muireall, and the child she bore within her, and the man who
had done this thing, and the father that had brought him into the world, latest adder of
an evil brood!
Scarce, however, was the minister gone, and he muttering sore, and frowning darkly at
that, than Gorromalt reeled and fell.
The blood had risen to his brain, and he had had a stroke. Sure, the sudden hand of God is
a terrifying thing. It was all we could do, with the help of Maisie and Kirsteen, to lift
and drag him to his bed.
But an hour after that, when the danger was over, I went to seek Morag. I could find her
nowhere. Maisie had seen her last. I thought that she had taken one of the horses from the
stable, and ridden toward Kilbrennan: but there was no sign of this. On the long, weary,
moor-road that led across Strathglas to Strathgorm, she could not have walked without
being seen by some one at Teenabrae. And everyone there was now going to and fro, with
whispers and a dreadful awe.
So I turned and went down by the linn. From there I could see three places where Morag
loved to lie and dream: and at one of these I hoped to descry her.
And sure, so it was. A glimpse I caught of her, across the spray of the linn. She was far
up the brown Gorromalt Water, and crouched under a rowan-tree.
When I reached her she looked up with a start. Ah, the pain of those tear-wet Mayblue
eyes-deep tarns of grief to me they seemed.
In her hand she clasped the letter that I had scratched for her.
"Read it, dear," she said simply.
It was in pencil, and, strangely, was in the Gaelic: strangely, for though, when with Mr.
and Mrs. Campbell, Morag and I spoke the language we all loved, and that was our own,
Muireall rarely did. The letter ran somewhat thus:
"When you get this I shall not be your living sister any more, but only a memory. I
take the little one with me. You know my trouble. Forgive me. I have only one thing to
ask. The man has not only betrayed me, he has lied to me about his love. He loves another
woman. And that woman, Morag, is you: and you know it. He loved you first. And now, Morag,
I will tell you one thing only. Do you remember the story that old Sheen McIan told
us---that about the twin sisters of the mother of our mother---one that was a Morag too?
"I am thinking you do: and here---where I shall soon be lying dead, with that silence
within me, where such a wild, clamouring voice has been, though inaudible to other ears
than mine---here, I am thinking you will be remembering, and realising, that story!
"If, Morag, if you do not remember---but ah, no, we are of the old race of Siol
Dhiarmid, and you will rememtber!
"Tell no one of this, except F.--- at the end.
"Morag, dear sister, till we meet-----
"I do not understand, Morag-my-heart," I
said. Even now, my hand shook because of these words: "and that woman, Morag, is
you: and you know it."
"Not now," she answered, wearily. "I will tell you to-night: but not
And so we went back together; she, too tired and stricken for tears, and I with so many in
my heart that there were none for my hot eyes.
As we passed the byre we heard Kirsteen finishing a milking song, but we stopped when
Maisie suddenly broke in, with her strange, wild, haunting-sweet voice.
I felt Morag's fingers tighten in their grasp on my arm as we stood silent, with averted
eyes, listening to an old Gaelic ballad of "Morag of the Glen."
When Morag of the Glen was fŰy
They took her where the Green Folk stray:
And there they left her, night and day,
A day and night they left her, fŰy.
And when they brought her home again,
Aye of the Green Folk was she fain:
They brought her leannan, Roy McLean,
She looked at him with proud disdain.
"For I have killed a man," she said,
"A better man than you to wed:
I slew him when he claspt my head,
And now he sleepeth with the dead.
"And did you see that little wren?
My sister dear it was, flew then!
That skull her home, that eye her den,
Her song is, Morag O' the Glen!
"For when she went I did not go,
But washed my hands in blood-red woe:
O wren, trill out your sweet song's flow,
Morag is white as the driven snow!"